When I was diagnosed with cancer January, 2015, I was in the process of getting ready for my first full year of focusing on photography. I had set up the year according to the photographic calendar: spring & summer for taking photos and traveling, camping through out southern Utah, building a better portfolio for shows and fairs. I have not come anywhere near that  devotion since. Since cameras now come with phones and are at the ready, I have half-heartedly used my camera phone to see how that might work. Here’s one example.


thought to words… almost, well sort of, could be better, maybe…? tell me

it seems as though there are some people who ascribe to cancer patients, some wisdom learned because one has had cancer. it may be deep or not.

do we ascribe wisdom to other disease, afflictions, chronicities such as diabetes? fibromyalgia? brain injuries? malaria?

what has happened to me, is not that I have become a wise old man. i’d hate to think one needed cancer to get there! what cancer, or other serious afflictions or traumatic events do.

because of cancer the range of emotion and thought have been increased, on the low end and the high end. so in these cases because you are forced to experience (hopefully) a wider range of emotions, you increase your understanding of them, and thus people.

this might give the experience of being “special” but it’s not. these are accessible to each and every one of us.

the hope would be, we have the chance to experience this wider range of emotions without a traumatic experience to present them to us.

Unfortunately some of us get cancer and thus come to this understanding.

bunches 'o beauty

bunches ‘o beauty